Finding my equilibrium

I have had one of those really “weird” weeks. It started off good with me listening to my podcasts and working on me. Tuesday was filled with training and motivating my team and by Wednesday my feathers were ruffled because I did not think that I was filling my day with something that was on my highest priority list, so I was not being true to my values, which really “ruffled” my feathers. I allowed outside influences to distract me, which in hindsight I should not have allowed, but at least I am in a space whereby I can acknowledge what exactly I need to fill my day with. Yes, I must confess, it took a conversation over a glass of wine with hubby to think it through, but thinking things through and accepting things for what they are, is a gift in itself.

By yesterday I was back on track and even managed to complete a business proposal which I have been “sitting on” for at least 6 months! The type of work/exercises which I have been doing on me, has taken me to a completely different mindset. Until a few months ago I was on this “positive mindset” buzz, but equally so on a “growth mindset” buzz and now that scale has tipped completely into growth mindset, as I have also come to understand the importance of having equilibrium in life. I am a work in progress and not there yet! The work on me should never stop!

Like a magnet, life has its positives and negatives, its ups and downs, love and hate, war and peace, wellness and illness. The list goes on and on, but you get my drift? As much as what we always want only the good, we have to also experience the bad, so that when the good happens we really appreciate it and can allow ourselves to be fully present and in that moment. A “this too shall pass” attitude. Maybe too “airy fairy”, happy clappy for some, but that works for me. Life is just way too short to attract only the negative! I want the positivity, the growth, the equilibrium!

Until recently, I was not in good space. Although I wasn’t necessarily in a negative mindset, I could just not get myself into a space of attracting “good vibes”. Even though I was exercising and eating healthy, my energy levels were still low. All I wanted to do was laze around with my Book Club books and read and watch endless amount of “mindless” TV, whether on the Crime Channel or HGTV! I do love those renovation shows! They make me green with envy, whereas the crime shows, have me thanking my lucky stars that as far as I know, I have no psychopaths in my life! Not that envy, is good. Ok, so maybe not envy, maybe more happy, creative vibes, making me think about when we do our own renovations a few years from now. Yes, a few years, since the money is not there for such luxuries like that right now. But do you see where I am going with this? Even in my TV programs I find equilibrium!

So before I waffle too much, the weird work week is ending off on a good note. We are off to our “happy place” on the coast for the weekend, eating at the fancy local restaurant tonight, family braai tomorrow and hopefully the passport application can be made on Monday! So life is overall good. My list of intentions for the week are all in the “done” column.

Until next time,

Light, love and GROWTH

Ophelia